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Monday’s Random Thought: Noticing November 28, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart — heartwriter @ 11:47 pm

I’ve been noticing a lot of grudges in the air. She said. He said. She did. She didn’t. He won’t. I actually woke up thinking about someone else’s grudge this morning. It had nothing to do with me, yet I was thinking the whole situation would be better if forgiveness was given. But it got me thinking, what forgiving do I need to do in my own life? Sure easy for me to pass judgement and assess what someone else should do. The day hadn’t gotten very far along when I realized that I had no right. It was time for me to look in, not out. That was when the hard work began.

 

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463. Four sack lunch mini-retreats a year since 2009. Next one Friday January 6th in West Seattle, 1 seat available.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: I Will Not Live As Though I Am Already Dead November 21, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart — heartwriter @ 3:30 pm

 

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Washing some of my rocks this morning. Yesterday I used them in a burn ritual and they were all covered with ash. Ahhh, out with the old, in with the new!

I am re-reading a book that I know I must read again. I have become itchy, complacent and walking through my days too busy, too pre-occupied, with what, really? This book on my shelf found me at the right time. Thank you author Dawna Markova for your beautiful book, I Will Not Die An Unlived Life, Reclaiming Purpose and Passion.

 

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The beginning of Chapter One in I Will Not Die an Unlived Life by Donna Markova.

 

In many ways I do live my life wide open as the poem suggests, but in other ways it is clear to me, where I am closed, turned away, shut off. Powerful to me how another’s words can come to me just when I need them, like a rain cloud on an unbearably hot day in the desert.

If you are walking in the desert or closed up perhaps Markova’s words will inspire you to inhabit your life with arms wide open, revealing your heart in a whole new light.

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This morning’s cup of tea, while writing you, dear readers. Cheers!

 

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463. Four sack lunch mini-retreats a year since 2009. Next one Friday January 6th in West Seattle, 4 seats available.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: How the Heart Carries November 14, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart,Poetry — heartwriter @ 2:41 pm
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A friend’s discovery on a recent walk. A passerby’s creation using nature for paint, Mother Nature as the pallet, vision pure, raw, from thin air.

On Sunday the kid’s and I had family church in the living room. We do this, not with regularity, but enough that it is a part of us. I light a candle, we come together. Connect. Share. Give thanks. Discuss. Laugh, cry if we feel the urge. Yesterday, I decided to read a new poem, one I hadn’t even read until that morning. Mary Oliver’s poems touch me to the core and I thought you too might like to hear this one.

Heavy

That time

I thought I could not

go any closer to grief

without dying

I went closer,

and I did not die.

Surely God

had His hand in this,

as well as friends.

Still, I was bent,

and my laughter,

as the poet said,

was nowhere to be found.

Then said my friend Daniel

(brave even among lions),

“It’s not the weight you carry

but how you carry it —

books, bricks, grief —

It’s all in the way

you embrace it, balance it, carry it

when you cannot, and would not

put it down.”

So I went practicing.

Have you noticed?

Have you heard

the laughter

that comes, now and again,

out of my startled mouth?

How I linger

to admire, admie, admire, admire

the things of this world

that are kind, and maybe

also troubled–

roses in the wind,

the sea geese on the steep waves,

a love

to which there is no reply?

After I read Oliver’s poem we talked about our friends, we each picked three and went around the circle sharing what we appreciated in these friends. Then it was time for communion.

I cut a molasses cookie into healthy host size and we blessed each other, offering, receiving a bit of love with crystalized sugar sprinkled on the top.

Even when we carry heaviness there is plenty of space to allow the light to get in.

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Sweet Bird November 7, 2016

Filed under: Uncategorized — heartwriter @ 9:21 pm

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Today our daughter is 15! So I offer a repost of what I wrote when she turned 9. Our daughter doesn’t wear her heart on her sleeves, but her compassionate heart blesses us every day. Her strength awes me, her confidence blows me away and her gentle spirit touches my life deeply.

 

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Our bundle of love even today at 15, fills me with joy!

heartwriter.wordpress.com/2010/11/07/sweet-bird/ (for original, or just see below)

Many babies, on emerging from their mother’s womb, resemble baby birds.  Mouth agape, wide eyes – searching.

When our daughter was born, nine years ago today, it didn’t take us long to nick name our precious baby girl, sweet bird.

The name stuck.  Her sweetness has only multiplied as we watch her grow and blossom, develop her own wings.

Every year on our children’s birthdays I get out the photo albums and decorate the refrigerator door with the birthday child’s pictures.  This year I went a little nuts, covering every spot on the fridge door, weepy and teary pouring over the captured moments of our sweet bird’s nine years on this planet.

You forget, at least I do, that they were ever that little.  You forget the bad hair cuts, the cute outfits, as well as the mismatched ones, naked moments in the kitchen.

We all say how fast time goes and we all feel the magnitude of that remark, but when you stop and look at photograph after photograph of past memories, both remembered and forgotten, you feel it in your bones.  As you wipe the tears and can’t keep from smiling how your sweet little bird is no longer little but definitely still quite sweet.

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Happy Halloween October 31, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart,Uncategorized — heartwriter @ 9:08 pm
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Even if my kids aren’t in to dressing up, very grateful they still like to carve pumpkins!

If you grew up here in America, I would imagine that you have Halloween memories. Here are some of mine I will share with you. Enjoy the fun and joy of season. Cheers!

Sister Molly painting on my clown face,

Squeezing mom’s belly with both arms while she removed my two too tight pig tails

Sugar daddies handed over

Trick or Treating with Jill, no parents, big girls now

Baby, Hobo, Witch, Jane of the Jungle, Psycho gal in the shower, Pregnant Nun

My pregnant belly with a painted pumpkin

Smashed pumpkins

Pumpkin guts, pumpkin seeds

Joyful children, accept mine, they never really liked Halloween

Too much candy

Candy in pillow case til March

Dressing up

Being silly

Creating joy

Son’s first big sex talk over Halloween dinner, age five

Oh, maybe that’s why they don’t like Halloween….

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Me circa early 1970’s eating the only sugar daddy allowed until my mom made me fork them over under the guise to save my teeth. (Nice try mom!)

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: I Choose Mio Marito (My Hubby) October 24, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart — heartwriter @ 5:42 pm
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A heart leaf texted to me from my dear friend this week.

A number of years back now, the kids were little, hubby and I saw a marriage counselor. We were in a place of needing some support, a little tweak here and there. In the three or four times we visited this counselor, we both received one life giving take away.

Eighteen years back, on this very day, October 24, 1998 we said, “I do.”

The take away from the marriage counselor was that she asked us to turn to each other and to say, “I choose you.” One at a time, looking each other in the eye. I still feel the goose bumps I felt all over in that moment.

That’s it, three powerful words. I. Choose. You. Since then, in good times and in bad, we stop, look each other in the eye, text one another if one is traveling, speak out to each other right in front of our teenage kids, “I choose you.”

See Mio Marito doesn’t need me to complete him and I don’t him to complete me. He walks in a room and my heart still skips a beat and of course the same happens to him when he sees me, duh!  Absolutely, we annoy each other with our little habits, but we love each other despite of them. I don’t need him to be the best me, but he brings out the best me, he supports me like no other, even when I am not being my best.

Sure looking back on the last eighteen years of marriage, if I would do it all over again maybe I would have made some different choices in the things I said, the way I behaved or the the things I did. I would however, not have chosen a different partner in crime. I would choose Mio Marito again, just like I do every day.

 

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October 24, 1998, “I choose you.”

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

Interested in life or spiritual coaching (individuals and couples) or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Church Poem October 17, 2016

Filed under: From The Heart,Uncategorized — heartwriter @ 4:55 pm
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Another timely gift, this morning’s text from a friend.

Church Poem (Working Title)

I went to church yesterday and I didn’t even have to get in the car.

I brought my dog and we cruised the neighborhood on foot.

Arriving at our prayer spot that overlooks the Puget Sound, I heard the choir,

I witnessed a thousand miracles in the crashing waves.

Giving thanks to the trees, having fellowship with my dog, I received communion without tasting a host, but by being in union with the beauty all around.

Even the grey clouds.

Feeling full and blessed, I remembered the many Sunday mornings in the pew, not with longing, but with appreciation.

That was church for me then and in this moment this is church for me now.

God felt closer to my heart walking in the wind than sitting inside sheltered from the cold.

Recognizing the love of God bubbling inside, I heard a church bell chime.

Deep, soothing gongs, a calling home, not to another place but to here.

To now. To the moment I am in, an affirmation that church doesn’t have to be a place I go to, but rather, a place I create in my heart, where ever I am, whomever I am with.

Like the timeliness of the church bell, I felt a nudge, God tugging at my sleeve to turn around, and it was there in the grey sky, from the spot I had heard the choir, my sign, better than any homily, a rainbow.

Fully arched.

I thought about pulling out my phone and taking a picture, but I remembered, I was in church, and I always felt a little funny about taking a picture in a sanctuary.

So I did what my son does, I took a mind picture.

I thanked God again and asked her to touch and bless the world, just like she was doing now with her multi-colored paintbrush.

I went to church yesterday and I didn’t even have to get in the car.

Hi, I’m Jenny Gwinn McGlothern, Certified Transformational Master Life Coach, Retreat Leader, Writer, Teacher and Seeker. As founder of my retreat business, Mama Needs A Refill, LLC, one way I know I fill my cup is by showing up to a blank page to write. Thank you for stopping by and reading my Random Monday Thoughts, because I will be honest that fills my cup too, knowing others are reading my filled page. Life is too short to blog about anything else unless it touches my heart. Please know I appreciate you joining me on this journey whether you visit every week since I began in 2009 or this is your first blog stop.

 

Curious about becoming a life coach or upleveling your life? I am a co-facilitator at Seattle Life Coach Training. The program is transformative, the experience more life giving than words can describe, www.slctseattle.com.

 

Interested in life or spiritual coaching or want to learn more about my retreats in Seattle, please find me on FaceBook, www.FaceBook.com/MamaNeedsARefill or visit my website: www.mamaneedsarefill.com, or simply call or text, 206 255 0463.