One day in yoga class last week as I relaxed on my back during the floor series I noticed I was laying down under a sky light. I entered class when the sky was dark and now I could see the sun was out but the sky was full of clouds.
I recentley have had to end a professional relationship. Over a month ago boundaries were crossed and I was no longer comfortable dealing with this person. It’s been a long time since I have intentionally ended a relationship. My pattern is more to keep relationships going even if they are unhealthy, all in order to keep the peace, not ruffle feathers. I have demonstrated a more passive response in the past instead of standing up for myself.
Not this time. Without drawing on all the specifics, pointing out this and that fault, I told the person, it was time to move on, we would no longer be using their services. If I brought up the specifics this individual would then point out my faults, and back and forth it would go. Tit for tat, just like in a family spat, treading water not moving ahead. Time to step away.
In yoga class, the sky light view has shifted revealing a string of clouds moving across a blue sky.
I learned so much about myself during this uncomfortable and hurtful experience. Instead of sitting on my hands in fear of this person exploding at me again I have chosen to be proactive and cut my losses. I am trying not to make judgements of this person, but of course it is too easy not to. So I acknowledge my areas of weakness, see where I can grow, and move forward in a positive direction.
Back at my view of the sky light the other morning, at the end of class, the previous string of clouds disappeared revealing a solid blue sky. Bright, full of possibility.
by J.G. McGlothern