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Monday’s Random Thought: It’s All in the Sweat September 30, 2013

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At the beginning of yoga class this morning, our instructor called attention to the gentleman in the back row. This was his 30th class in 30 days. The 30 day challenge is a common thing, I am learning, in the Bikram world. We were invited to dedicate our class to him.

So I did. I dedicated my 90 minutes of blood, sweat and tears to Doug, the guy old enough to by my father in the red speedo.

I had a great class. I let go. Feeling light and focused, I remembered Doug and sent him good vibes. Not to mention sweat poured out of me like pig in the noon day sun.

At the end of class, showered, and putting on my rain boots. I saw Doug in the lobby. We have never met and I said, If you were to sum up your 30 day challenge in one word what would it be?

Gratitude, he told me.

I wanted to hug him. I could’ve now that I was fresh as a daisy. Instead, I put my hand on his shoulder, it wasn’t weird, now that he was in pants and not his speedo, and said, Thank you for your inspiration.

He could’ve chosen so many other words. But he chose the one that filled his heart and for that, I too, am grateful for it filled my heart as well.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Aha September 23, 2013

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I had a spiritual lesson Saturday morning. Some call this self-awareness discovery an ‘aha’.

I have made a recent commitment to myself to wake up every morning before the rest of the household, and write for an hour. Well, I woke up early but I didn’t write. I checked email and FaceBook. I proceeded to spend a really long time answering a business email. I wanted to be prompt in my response. I was showing up for this other person, not to myself. The only person placing urgency on replying to the email right then was me.

After spending nearly twenty minutes composing my thoughts I somehow hit a button that caused my email response to disappear. Vanish in mid-air. I tried to bring it back. Twitching my nose like Bewitched did not work. It was gone.

I swore, waving my arms about. I cried in the shower.

Then I got over it.

That is when I received my lesson, my little aha. I gave away my time to write by listening to the “should” voice. Writing needs to happen first thing otherwise it won’t happen at all. By honoring my commitment to myself I am not only showing up, I am saying YES to the creative process, to life.

For four years now, I have been “writing” my book and the only way it will get written is by showing up to a blank page and filling it. Not by throwing away the gift of time I have to write.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Seize the Moment September 16, 2013

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We are given a lot of gifts of time. Numerous opportunities in life to seize the moment. So numerous we often aren’t aware of missing out until the next chance presents itself. A circle of opportunities. The good news is we aren’t really missing out, this Universe is abundant. God is a giver. We aren’t always the best receivers, ignoring the opportunities, failing to seize the moments given to us.

This weekend I stopped playing the martyr and received the moments given to me. Saturday evening I had the house to myself for five hours. Hubby and son were at a friend’s house watching a football game and daughter was at a slumber party.

The first hour, I admit, was a struggle. I fell into my normal role, playing this tape in my head,
“I should do the dishes, the kitchen is a mess, I don’t want everyone to come home to the mess.” We had not been home with two soccer games that day, hubby made pancakes for the kids and dishes were stacked on the counter and in the sink, syrup was hardening. In that hour I cleaned one counter and made bread, adding to the stack of dishes. The syrup was nothing, wait til the bread dough remains hardened in the bowl I just used. “Be productive, be a responsible mom, my “good mother” voice told me.

During the whole hour of putting clean dishes away, starting a load of laundry and making bread, my heart was racing with thinking about WHAT I REALLY WANTED TO DO. WRITE. I wanted to write for an hour. There was only one way to hush the SHOULD voice, the old voice that was always resisting my desire to write.

I grabbed my laptop and left the house. Around the corner, less than two blocks from our house, I found refuge at my favorite coffee shop. I drank my strong coffee and hammered out the words floating in my brain, swimming deep down in my heart.

When I seize opportunities like that to do what moves me and I listen to the little whisper inside of me, I never regret it.

When the coffee shop closed and my words had filled the blank screen, I went back home, listening to another whisper. Besides writing and reading, I love movies. Words on the big screen. I walked passed the dirty dishes and headed to the basement to watch a movie.

Later in the night, I started to do the dishes. I was ready to do them, my heart was full of doing things that filled me. Hubby, suggested we do them in the morning when he saw me begin the task. I was tired. That was probably the best moment of the day to seize. The next morning while hubby was doing those dishes from the day before, I went to yoga.

I had a weekend of taking the opportunities to do what I want with activities that nourish and fuel me and I am grateful. When I live my weekend time, listening to that martyr voice of “being the one who always gets things done” I emerge bitter. I begin Monday a little empty.

Not this Monday.

I believe if I would not have cleaned the house and done those dishes, forgetting about my writing and the movie, the things I wanted to do, another opportunity, another time would come around where I had to choose again. Life works like that. The circle continues to rotate and bring us choices. No decision is wrong, it is up to us to decide, but usually one of the decisions brings us greater peace.

We have choices in how we seize the moment.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: Habit Forming September 9, 2013

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Do you have habits that aren’t really serving you? What about the ones you CAN’T live without, are they helping or hindering you?

They say it takes 21 days to make a habit.

21 days isn’t very long.

21 days can take forever.

If you’re adopting a new healthy habit, let’s say, that’s not long at all. If you are trying to break an unhealthy habit, those days can drag on forever.

I wonder if you have been doing something your whole life, thinking a certain way perhaps, if it really only takes 21 days to change your behavior, routine, way of being?

If you have a deep longing to be or to possess a certain quality, can it really manifest in 21 days?

I believe anything is possible.

Miracles happen every day, not every 21.

 

Monday’s Random Thought: What are you waiting for? September 2, 2013

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There is nothing easier than procrastination and I am really good at it. I would call myself the Queen of it, if there was one.

Sometimes my excuses are so believable I use them again and again. And other times my excuses just don’t make any sense at all.

I am the only one who can look at the procrastination square in the face and tell it to screw off, fly away, scram.

I am the only one.

So procrastination, Screw off. Fly away. Scram. I got some work to do.