I decided to repost a blog I wrote this time of year, five years ago. With life being cyclical, patterns repeat. This Lent I chose my word to be MINDFULNESS. A similar word to the one I chose five years ago. With it being Easter week, my mind is reflective, questioning, grateful and curious. This year I chose mindfulness as my word to focus on because I find myself in so many places at once, not really being present to what I am doing and what is before me.
I don’t know if I’ve become more present but I do notice more awareness in the trying, which brings us to the post I wrote five years ago…Happy Reading. Happy Holy Week.
Eyes Wide Open
I love Lent. Forty days before Easter, a chance to create reflection time in my life. An opportunity to look at my heart. To observe, listen, watch.
I have chosen one word to represent my Lenten journey this season…AWARENESS. And oh, the doors that are opening and revealing such bright light.
A friend gave me a book with that very title, Awareness, and I’m only in the beginning but the word struck such a cord with me, I wanted to sit with it.
Ever since I chose that word as my focus, my reminder, my prayer I’ve had conflict arise in my life. Inside and out. Conflict that has opened my eyes in a way I didn’t know I could see. There have been harsh words spoken, misunderstandings, hurt feelings and the surprise in it all was who I had to forgive. Myself. It is life giving to look at yourself in a new light and say – I’m not perfect, I’m not always right, I have the power to hurt others, I matter. So instead of hanging my head low, I raise it up high. Learning from it all.
I don’t want to walk blindly through my days, instead I wish to be aware, alive, even if that brings pain and sadness. Because out of that pain and sadness new life is born. Seeds blossom.
by J.G. McGlothern